if self-indulgence was the same as whale fat I could light the apartment for an extended period of time.

red delicious apples.
I just wrote this on my list
with a period. for emphasis.

it is time I took steps to make sure I eat better;

today I found an old container of cream
that I kept putting off remembering to throw out

and as I squeezed it into the sink
and had to rip open the top
and pull it a little
I thought about what you said about not drinking milk.

after I turned on the garbage disposal I drank some 2%.
because it’s all about having a sense of purpose
and making tough decisions

and I want to turn our second of three floors roof into a deck
with an awning and chairs and a view.

and you know

sometimes I feel more like june carter than john cash

that we all need to make decisions
texture aside.

I am going to buy some apples tomorrow.
the wind is fucking howling
they will be delicious.