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we were sailing through the flood on a ship. i don't remember what it looked like. blankets were dropping. they looked heavy. everything seemed very heavy. i could not see you. i could not see anything at some point after the blankets fell. i closed my eyes tightly and rimmed the thick heavy things with lights. something opened up from the inside. i felt swallowed whole. i was swallowed whole. i existed inside something very small and became very small in order to do this. i expanded. everything changed. i woke up covered in sweat. i woke up again and i wasn't. i came down to the kitchen. you bit my head off and gently put it back. it was one of the nicest things you'd ever done. thanks i said. you smiled at me and it was nice.